Hey Guys &’ Girls !’
Happy New (I think it’s a bit old now, but hey!) Year !
Jan 09-19
It’s Senior Year Y’all !!’
I’ve officially made it to my final semester in undergrad! (Yaaay !!) In a few months I’ll be graduating with my BA in English (that’s right!) and I’m beyond elated!
Then … there’s the issue 😧
You know that feeling when you’re close to the finish line and the odds suddenly just begin to come knocking at your door?
Yeah.
I’m currently in that boat.
After completing all my required courses, I have just one class holding me back – Spanish! Without this class, I can’t graduate in June ☹️, and I’ll have to stay back until December. December!
The worst (and best part): I’m in line for a teaching interview that, when admitted into the program, would automatically make me a New York teacher for special education.
So, what do I do now!?
To top it all off, I’m in debt y’all.
Yes, I currently owe my school over $1000.00 which needs to be paid by May.
No I don’t have that amount of money right now.
In all actuality, I was quite stressed about how I’d get that money to pay for school, knowing that if I can’t pay that money by May, I won’t be able to get my degree.
Oh yeah, I forgot to mention how I’m still waiting to be approved for a class waiver in order to graduate in June. Fact is, if I can’t get that class waived, I can’t graduate. Four years of undergrad to be held back for one class! No way.
In the midst of all this, somewhere, deep within me, I still have hope. Year 2018 was one of way too many worries, worries over great problems and insignificant ones, but this year, I have to change the way I look at things. Let’s face it. Having faith in God’s promises is at times easier said than done, especially in the midst of the chaos, when your at the finish line and your situation seems to be yielding nothing but barricades and misery. I have four months to satisfy my debt and one month to determine if I’m going to go on to graduation or be held back, but I’m holding on, in faith, refusing to lean on my own understanding.
“Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways submit to him, and he will make your paths straight.”
Proverbs 3:5-6 NIV
I’ve been praying continuously and have seen God making ways out of no ways. As I continue to pray, I’ll continue to believe the best. Even though I’ve heard it said that it’s impossible to have that class waived, I choose to believe that God is able to do ALL things, for there’s absolutely NOTHING too hard for God.
“Jesus said to him, “[You say to Me,] ‘If You can?’ All things are possible for the one who believes and trusts [in Me]!””
MARK 9:23 AMP
As for the finances. I turned my worries – about how I’d find the money to pay for school – into a courageous act of asking for donations and in a matter of a few hours, I raised $750.00! This isn’t even the final amount, as I’m still awaiting donations from a few more people! I’ll have all that I need even before the due date!
““ Ask and keep on asking and it will be given to you; seek and keep on seeking and you will find; knock and keep on knocking and the door will be opened to you.”
MATTHEW 7:7 AMP
No wonder God encourages us on so many occasions through His word to refrain from worrying and anxiety. An anxious heart cannot produce reasonable and godly decisions and actions. Worry clouds the mind and emphasizes unbelief. Keeping our hearts and minds on God’s promises is an act of humility. As we lay aside our concerns and surrender our cares to Abba, we invite Him to constantly take control.
So I choose to keep hoping, I choose to grow in faith and I choose to believe, that God is already providing a stream in the desert for me. He has been faithful to take me this far. He won’t let go off my hand now.
Be encouraged and fix your focus on Abba, my Father, your Father. As you believe God with me, I’m believing God with you.
Blessings. Peace.
Happy 2019 !’ ❤️